The last time Lex was happy, it was before. When she had a family that was whole. A boyfriend she loved. Friends who didn’t look at her like she might break down at any moment.
Now she’s just the girl whose brother killed himself. And it feels like that’s all she’ll ever be.
As Lex starts to put her life back together, she tries to block out what happened the night Tyler died. But there’s a secret she hasn’t told anyone-a text Tyler sent, that could have changed everything.
Lex’s brother is gone. But Lex is about to discover that a ghost doesn’t have to be real to keep you from moving on.
From New York Times bestselling author Cynthia Hand, The Last Time We Say Goodbye is a gorgeous and heart-wrenching story of love, loss, and letting go.
Source: Harper Collins Australia (Thank you for the tears!)
This was me after the book:
What makes it worst is that I finished this book during school so suddenly everyone’s silent and then there was me, tears running down my face like a hormonal teenager who can’t control my emotions. And my friend stares and goes back to her book, Endgame. Thanks, Izzy.
As you see my emotions ran high in this book. The writing was simple and descriptive, the pacing quite slow yet the main character, Lex was so real. Lex had just lost her younger brother, Ty to suicide. What made it worst was how sudden it was and that he did in their garage with his dad’s gun. I loved reading Lex’s memories of her and Ty. I loved their relationship, how close they were, their inside jokes and their fun-loving teasing. Their relationship was so strong as siblings and the flashback scenes of Lex and him as children was probably the sweetest thing. I love how Cynthia Hand was able to build so much of a character and give him not only such a huge part but also a significant voice, even though we don’t actually see him in the book.
Lex is such a complicated person. I found that I was pretty much the exact type of person she was. She loved numbers. Everything to her was an equation that needed to be simplified and balanced. She didn’t see the point of relationships and love because there was always a logical explanation to her. She is incredibly smart and everything mathematical and scientific came so easily to her which I envied. She dealt with her brother’s death very objectively, at least she tried to. She sees her brother everywhere and she dreams about his death in different ways. But she brushes this off to the insanity of her mind. She tries to ignore it but it still happens.
Her therapist, Dave suggests that she writes in a notebook about everything and anything.
Lex has to deal with so many things. She hates being the pity attention of every single one of her friends. She pulls away from her ex-boyfriend who still loves her and ignores the fact that its obvious that they are perfect for each other. She not only had to deal with this but also with her guilt of missing a vital message from her Ty only moments before her took his life. She considers herself alone since her father’s left their family and her mother is having a mental breakdown. I really enjoyed seeing Lex go through this journey and with it, also rediscovering old friends.
In all honestly, not much actually happened in the story. But that’s mainly to the fact that the only Lex could overcome this incident was for her to face her daily life and its struggles. There were some times, where I was a bit bored but when I finished it, it was all worth it.
The ending is simple and beautiful and as a character, Lex grows so much. She becomes less ignorant and open to the fact that life can be lost at any moment. I recommend this book to anyone who loves books that cleverly and honestly deal with issues of depression and suicide.